The Big Picture

I'm enjoying God's reminders that life's not all about me.

Last night I watched “Idol Gives Back”. I listened to the heart breaking stories of individuals all around the world with tears streaming down my face. I guess I have just become more aware of others as I’ve grown older and especially since becoming a mother.

I want to change the world, but I’m just one girl and sometimes I feel like a drip in the ocean. To borrow from Yael Naim “See I’m a young soul in this very strange world.” And what a strange world this is. People are sick and dying of preventable causes in Africa, there are motherless and homeless children all around the world, and even here in our own country there are people starving. Yet at the same time MTV is producing shows like “Teen Cribs” and women all over the United States are tuning out the world’s problems as they tune in to “Desperate Housewives”.

Something is very wrong. I am pointing the finger directly at myself here. The world is sick, and yet even though I know all of these things I somehow find a way to block them out most days. They seem worlds away from me and my immediate concerns of “Brooke won’t stop crying” or “I want a bigger house”. I think at times the problems are too big to face and I just don’t want to face them. They are giants and I am not even David. I’m the pebble that David used in his sling shot. The giant that demands immediate attention is a very dangerous one. It is the giant of a selfish mindset. I have to beat him in order to take on the other giants our world is facing. It is a struggle every day to live outside of myself and look at the big picture of what is going on in this world, but slowly I am attempting to kill the selfish monster that lives inside the chamber walls of my heart. The good news is I do not have to do it on my own. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. (Phil 4:13)