Saturday, January 31, 2015

One Month In

A true writer doesn't have the option of not writing. Inside, words bubble up until they simply spill out onto paper or Word documents or tiny pieces of scrap paper scattered around one's house... it's a building pressure I've experienced many times throughout my life. I last blogged over six months ago, which means it's time for a spill. I find myself typing away this afternoon to tell you about an intense passion of mine. My husband.

My husband and I will celebrate one month of marriage tomorrow. Ah, newlywed love, you say. But what we have is so much more than that. Words really do fall short, but I'll try. The way this man loves me is out of this world. He loves me on my best days, but some how he seems to love me even more on my worst. He loves me with words but even more with his actions. Matt is my best friend, my favorite person to hang out with, my lover, my business partner, my prayer warrior and so much more. He holds me accountable in my relationship with Christ and pushes me-- not with words, but with the decisions I watch him make everyday--to live a life more exemplary of Christ. And while none can deny his GQ good looks, it's the character of his heart that captured mine.

His integrity is unquestionable. I trust him. No, not just a "I trust you because a wife is supposed to trust her husband" kind of trust. I mean I truly trust him. I trust him in any and every situation to always do what honors God. This trust did not form blindly, for I've watched him closely throughout the couple of years that I've known him and even closer during the time of our dating and engagement. I've watched for inconsistencies in speech, action, and thought. I've found none. I've watched how he handles being tired and overworked. His patience and good nature remain. I've watched him read his bible before the sun comes up and late at night when the rest of the world is asleep. I've watched him read princess stories to Brooke tenderly without ever being insecure in his own manhood. (This, by the way, is what a true man looks like.)


Matt is only a man, but the love he shows me speaks to one thing and one thing alone; he answers to God. This man is not directed by this world or his own flesh, but rather he's completely led by the force of Jesus Christ living within his heart. Matt is the greatest gift I have ever received and his friendship in this lifetime is a true testimony to what can happen when one places God at the center of his or her life. I love my husband deeply, but even more, I love our Heavenly Father who cares enough to gift me with such an incredible companion for this lifetime.Our marriage is one that speaks volumes about God's beautiful restorative nature.

Cheers to our next few months, years, and decades of marriage, babe. This first month only stirs excitement for how God plans to use us together. Please know that I am forever honored to serve Christ by serving as your wife.